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It is also quite interesting coming back to write a blog after a couple of days break. I feel I have lost my groove somewhat.
This weekend was very busy. Saturday we went to London to stay in a hotel and to see Les Mis. I had won a competition and this was the prize.
Sunday morning, I was leading worship so we left the hotel just after breakfast and then after church, It was time for planning and making resources.
I haven’t been sleeping well recently, waking up in the middle of the night remembering something that I need to do and then not being able to switch off.
When the alarm went this morning, I was less than impressed. As well as teaching a full day, it was parents’ evening. I don’t dislike parents’ evening. I do dislike it on a Monday.
I probably share the thoughts of a lot of you regarding Mondays. It is a time to get settled into the week, a day to set your pace for the week. I feel like I have been thrown off kilter and will spend the rest of the week catching up.
The evening went well, I had books for parents to look at, half term assessments, I was able to talk in detail about the students.
Yet tonight, I sit here barely able to keep my eyes open. A few of my students asked me if I was ok today, one if them gave me their analysis of how I was feeling from reading my face.
The truth is, I don’t know how I am feeling. I don’t feel myself. I feel faint and lethargic and drained of all energy. I appear pale in my complexion and am unsteady on my feet. Part of me has concerns that my fainting and blackout episodes are going to start again.
Times like this it would be easy to spiral, to almost give up. This is when I have to cling to my faith. To focus on what I know and not how I am feeling. My feelings are fickle, changeable, unreliable.
One of my favourite verses is from Jeremiah ‘I know the plans I have for you, declares The Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and hope.’
When I begin to feel as though I can’t go on, or life is overwhelming, I read this verse and hold on to the truth.
I have a future and hope.
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