On the eve of the first day back to school it seems only right to blog.
Usually, at this time of year there is a real sense of expectancy about what is to come over the next academic year – how will I engage the students, what ideas can I use, when will I hit the wall? This has been routine for me for over ten years.
This year however, things are different. Yes, I am going back and excited to see the students but this time it will only be for a week. After that, maternity leave starts and along with that a new season in my life.
I had never really entertained the idea of becoming a mother, mainly because a doctor felt it was a good idea to tell me at 15 years old that I would have trouble conceiving because of having X-rays.
This was a seed that planted in my mind and I believed I would not be able to have children.
Whenever people asked, I said I wasn’t ready yet but what I wasn’t saying was that I was too frightened to even consider the idea as the doctor’s words echoed in my head on a daily basis.
3 months into trying and I fell pregnant. Still now at 37.5 weeks it is so surreal to me.
This is a new season for me, I am moving from years of being very comfortable, having a career and a routine that worked for me. Moving on from knowing what to expect, planning, organising and feeling in control.
All of that is about to change…
I believe that this is part of me growing in my faith and going on with God.
I am to be taken out of my comfort zone, which is where we need to be for God to fully work in us and through us.
I am no longer in control. I don’t know when the baby will come or what my life will be like.
I have a choice, I can either wait in fear of what is to come or wait in peace, believing that God has plans and purposes for me.
I choose the latter. I am looking forward to the adventure that lies before me. I am expectant for what is to come and I truly believe that the best is ahead!
Are you heading into a new season?
Are you letting words spoken over you hold you back?
Are you expectant for a new adventure?