‘Beware the barreness of a busy life.’ Socrates
I read this quote yesterday and it really hit home.
Recently, I have felt quite overwhelmed by the amount of work I seem to have piling up, by the fact I have no free weekends until after Christmas and just by the fact that I don’t feel I have time to breathe.
For the past two days we have had no internet at home. This has meant I have not been able to work at home. It has been unnerving but in a way quite freeing.
Tonight, I even read some of my book we are discussing at book club tomorrow night. I might even get it finished in time.
You see, I have lost perspective, become blinkered and it needs to stop.
At our senior management meeting tonight, I said it as was, said that I was concerned about the lack of evidence I could find of paperwork and student work. Concerned by the lack of support from staff when there is an incident.
I was listened to. Offered support and strategies and it was recognised that I am constantly problem solving for everyone.
Part of the problem is that I do try to do it all and I can’t. The other thing is, I now need to practice tough love.
This is where I need to work on my courage and strength.
I have been over emotional this week and not myself.
Tomorrow night, I have book club. This is something I started and run to ensure that I remember to still have a life outside of work.
Saturday, I am off to The Southbank to meet friends and go out for lunch.Making sure busyness does not leave me with barreness.
Sunday, I will be at church as Godmother to my friends daughter as she is dedicated. I am still moved and taken a back that I was asked.
Sometimes, I wonder how people do life without church. The support network and depth of relationship I share with people there is something that I could not live without.
The fact that I know I have people upholding me in prayer each day and people checking in on how I am on a daily basis.
Even when it is hard, I know I am not alone.
I will continue fighting the barreness of a busy life.