So, little man is 6 months and having a period of wakefulness at night.
The initial reaction is to Google and come up with 100 different explanations ranging from growth spurts to not following a sleep training method.
It can be a minefield and there are always plenty of smug ‘experts’ ready to tell you everything you are doing wrong and why you should buy into their particular methods.
Truth is, no-one knows the answer part from little man and he isn’t in a position to tell me.
I have developed my own coping mechanisms for these periods and they happen every so often.
At first, it was easy to beat myself up about it, to feel I had to put a brave face on it and just keep calm and carry on.
Before… I would have forced myself to get up, get dressed, face the world and even get a morning walk in to ensure little man napped. I was slightly crazed about just getting on.
Today… I posted in my secret mums group on Facebook about our shocker of an evening, whats app’d my post natal group and was hugely delighted to be presented with a cup of coffee by my husband before he left for work.
Instead of focussing on getting up and getting on, I sat on the bed with little man and played, enjoyed staying in my pyjamas and dressing gown. I can shower later – for now I just need to be.
I received plenty of words of encouragement from other mums who are experiencing similar and was spurred on by the knowledge that I am not alone!
I did the breakfast routine – weaning has begun. Mashed banana on toast – what a choice for a day when I’m living on coffee and prayer. It was fine, what are baby wipes for anyway?
Now, little man naps and I’m still in my pjs and you know what? I feel liberated. Liberated from the need to be up, showered, dressed out and facing the world.
I will be going out later but I’m not looking at the clock and fretting today.
Today, I am struggling to stay awake a little so I’m going to take my time. I’m not going to buy into questioning myself, or rushing to do everything.
I am leaving Google and forums alone.
Today, I’m a mum and I’m still in my pjs.